There really is no excuse with anything. I said I would deliver my 3D artwork soon and I just haven't....Why??
I've honestly been going on and off as to how I would work my way around making my art projects and I've fallen into both having an artist block to not feeling very motivated at all. It's been a constant battle with me ever since I've always told myself that I gotta fight and just do what I love to do...And that's the thing... To lose passion towards something you once felt passionate about is a very rough way of starting how you would pick yourself back up again. It's the whole I've been there and done that, now I just want to be done with it altogether type of attitude. It even went onto a point where I tried looking at other people's artwork to get me motivated, but at the end of it all, I found myself just looking around and not doing much for myself at the same time. I could write in here asking questions like what motivates you? What inspires you so you can keep going? But I'm not going to ask those typical questions because I know at the end of the day, it all depends on me as to how I should deliver myself with my art projects. I could even set myself up for challenges each week or each month, but I know that at the end of it I'll probably say I didn't have time for it.
I do apologize for the expectation I set up months ago. I've been very critical as to why I've been demotivated for this very length of time and have come to realize that I've been more worried of what other people's opinions or critiques would be, rather than getting the project done. Yes, I admit, I worry about the feedback with every start of a project. It's a silly worry, and I know that most artists go through this phase in some form or another. I'm personally opening up about this because it's a long struggle I've kept internally and it hasn't changed much since. I understand that even if I'm opening up about this type of matter, what comes down to it at the end of the day is how I perceive and how I treat my situation. This time around, I'm being honest and open about my long absence because I brought up an expectation before that I obviously didn't fulfill and that's something I'm not proud of.
I'm seeking to make a change right now because I know time isn't ever on our side when we want something done. It's been nearly 2 years since I truly made something worth while in modeling, but don't get me wrong, I didn't fully forget my skills. I've touched on 3Ds Max a little here and a little there to at least retain my memory of the basics. I just need to continue creating and evolving what I understand now towards something better.
I will not list out what projects I'll be doing nor posting up work in progress pics, because I know the final product will matter in the end. Just please bare with me with these upcoming months as I try to deliver something presentable to post on here.